Today was my first day at my new college. It was quite good. Lots of new people. Sadly 50% of the guys there were queer ass hipsters with justin bieber hair and jeans about 2 sizes too thin; And 50% of the wimins were gobby fucking scenesters who think they are too good for a fuck. NO PROBLEM. Gonna try out for the American Football enrichment (its not even classed as a real sport in England lol pwnt) even though i will get destroyed by the fucking beefcakes there itll be worth it for teh lulz.

There was a homeless guy in town today. I walked up and dropped 20p into his hat. I felt pretty good, then some asshat came out of nowhere and put a £5 note in it. Boy did I look like a bastard.

I pee sitting down sometimes. You know, just as a treat.

                                                    STRAIGHT OUTTA COMPTON NIGGA

Spent the night round a mates house yesterday. Talked about boobies for a while. Ate some pizza. Now listening to some Deadmau5. Ordered my Pendulum and Deadmau5 tickets for December. Planning on getting pretty fucking high tonight. I love my life. Also cake.

Woke up at 3pm today. Dont know why. Made a scrambled egg sandwhich. dropped it on myself. had a shower. NOW IM BLOGGIN NIGGA.

                                                        Did I mention how much I love cats ?

I love lamp. And cats. But I dislike Justin Bieber. He is bad. Also cake.

RIGHT POO FELT GOOD IT CAME OUT WITH EASE, DIDNT LEAVE MUCH SKIDDYS AND ONLY TOOK A FEW PIECES OF TOILET PAPER TO WIPE MY FUCKING HAIRY ARSE. GREAT SUCCESS! BUT I THINK SOME OF THE DRUG LEFT MY BODY WITH THE POO BECAUSE IM FEELING A BIT NORMAL NOW. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. GAMEOVERMANGAMEOVER.

OH YEAH I REMEMEBER WE WERE TALKING ABOUT A PROGRAMME I WATCHED ONE TIME AND IT WAS ABOUT 'INFINITY' AND ON WETHER INFINITY WAS REAL BECAUSE IF IT IS REAL THEN IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT THEN SOMEWHERE IN SPACE AND TIME IF EVERYTHING IS INFINITE, THERE IS GOING TO BE A WORLD THAT HAS BEEN EXACTLY THE SAME AS OURS TO THE ATOM UNTILL YOU MOVED YOUR ARM OR SOMETHING AND CHANGED IT . SORTA LIKE DIFFERENT DIMENTIONS BEING CREATED EVERYTIME ANYTHING HAPPENS EXCEPT MINUS THE DIMENTIONS PART BECAUSE YOU DONT NEED OTHER DIMENTIONS WHEN SPACE IS JUST INFINITE. AND IM A GOON AND I FIND THIS KIND OF THING INTERESTING AND WE TALKED ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES OF INFINITE BEING REAL FOR A GOOD BUMMING SESH. I CANT EVEN REMEMBER WHY I DECIDED TO WATCH A PROGRAMME ON INFINITY IN THE FIRST PLACE BUT FUCK IT WAS GOOD THINKING ABOUT THAT KINDA SHIT WHEN YOUR SUPER HIGH. OR DOWN ? IF YOUR ON A DOWNER AND YOUR FEELING IT YOU SAY YOU'RE "HIGH" SO DO YOU SAY YOUR "LOW" WHEN YOUR ON AN UPPER ? WE WANKED OVER THE THOUGHT OF A WORLD WHERE WE WERE BOTH (BUT NOT AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE THREESOMES WITH 2 GUYS AT THE SAME TIME ARE GAY) SHAGGING A HOT CELEBRITY BABE. IT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW IF INFINITE IS REAL. PLEASE GOD LET IT BE REAL. THAT IS ALL FOR NAOW LOGGING OUT I NEED TO POO.

AND BTW YEAH IT IS JUST ME AND AARON HERE DOING PEELS CUS THATS NOT SOCIABLY DEGENERATIVE AND IS TOTALY WHAT 2 FRIENDS DO TOGETHER TO HAVE FUN NOWADAYS. dont judge me! FUCK I FORGOT I DECIDED TO PUT CAPS LOCK ON AFTER MY LITTLE FINGER WAS PERMA CRIPPLED EARLIER AND THAT "DONT JUDGE ME!" WAS SUPPOSED TO BE IN CAPITALS BUT ITS NOT. IT COULDNT BE LESS CAPITAL. THATS LIKE THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED TO HAPPEN. OH WELL JUST IMAGINE I WROTE ALL OF IT APART FROM THAT BIT IN NORMAL AND THEN THAT BIT IS IN CAPITALS BECAUSE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY IM WRITING THIS IN NOTEPAD AND THIS NASTY FONT IS HURTING MY EYE SIGHT. AINT EVEN TROLLING. MY MUM JUST WALKED IN AGAIN AND AARON WAS JUST SAT THERE WATCHING STATIC ON THE TV BECAUSE HE COMPLETED HIS XBOX GAME TWICE AND DECIDED NOT TO TELL ME THAT I HAD ACCIDENTALY CHANGED THE CHANNEL BECAUSE HE WAS GETTING BORED OF THE GAME ANYWAY. OH BOY OH BOY. IM TOTALLY TRYING TO REMEMBER SHIT THAT I SAID LAST NIGHT THAT WAS CLEVER BUT I CANT THINK WHEN I TRY TO THINK SO ILL JUST HAVE TO LEAVE IT AND REMEMBER WHEN I CAN REMEMBER. PENIS.

IM GOING TO TAKE A PARAGRAPH NOW BECAUSE I HAVENT IN A WHILE AND IF I BECOME FAMOUS AND THEY SEARCH MY COMPUTER AFTER I DIE FOR ANYTHING OF INTEREST AND THEY FIND THIS, IT MAKES IT A LITTLE EASIER FOR THE EDITOR TO WRITE MY BIOGRAPHY BECAUSE IT PISSES ME OFF WHEN PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO TYPE CUS THEY TYPE LOIKE THIS XXXXXxxxxXXxxxxxX :/:/ :L. NOT THAT I WANT THEM PUBLISHING THIS THE FUCKERS BECAUSE I DONT WANT MY MUMMY TO FIND OUT I DID PEELZ EVEN IF SHE IS DEAD WHEN IT GETS PUBLISHED AND ITS JUST IN BAD TASTE. IMAGINE A KID THINKING IM THEIR HERO FOR SAVING A TRIBE OF BLACK PEOPLE FROM A FIRE THATS BURNING THEIR HUTS DOWN BUT THEY DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS BECAUSE THEYRE BLACK AND THEY DONT KNOW WHAT FIRE IS THERE YET. WTF IS FIRE ANYWAY ? ITS LIKE ENERGY IN PHYSICAL FORM. FUCK THAT SHIT IM NOT EVEN GOING THERE. AND THEN THE KID READ MY BIOGRAPHY OF ME WRITING ABOUT FUCKING ANAL OR THATS WHAT THE LAST THING I TYPED THAT I CAN REMEMBER WAS. MUST BE ON MY MIND. AND ANYHOW WOULDNT IT BE FUNNY IF ALL THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I JUST FORESAW IT AND THEY WILL BE LIKE HOLY SHIT HOW DID RAWB KNOW THAT! FUCKING MAGNETS MAN!


IVE FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING THAT WAS FUN LAST NIGHT NOW IM TOO SLOW AT TYPING I FORGOT TO LIKE UMMM TYPE IT WHEN I THOUGHT OF IT EVEN THOUGH HALF OF IT WAS PURE GENIOUS EVEN COMPARED TO SOME OF THE STUFF IVE ALREADY WRITTEN.

OH FUCK THATS CONVENIENT THATS ACTUALLY WHAT THE ANALOGY ABOUT RICH KIDS AND YOUR MIND WAS GONNA BE ABOUT BUT THEN I FORGOT WHAT I WAS WRITING LIKE I HAVE NUMEROUS TIMES SO FAR AND STARTED TALKING ABOUT FORGETTING THINGS INSTEAD LOL. IRONY. SO WHILE I CAN KNOW WHAT I BE TALKING ABOUT THE ANALOGY WAS SOMETHING LIKE "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE GOT UNTILL ITS GONE" WHICH IS RELEVENT TO RICH PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE NOT TO HAVE WEALTH UNTIL ITS GONE BUT ALSO TO DO WITH YOUR BRAIN BECAUSE UNTIL YOU REALISE SOMETHING IS GONE YOU DONT REALISE WHAT ITS LIKE NOT HAVING IT BEFORE. I GUESS WHAT IM GETTING AT IS THAT I AM AWARE THAT I HAVE NO SHORT TERM MEMORY AND THE FACT I AM AWARE OF IT IS MAKING ME SORT OF UNDERSTAND HOW MEMORY WORKS IN A WAY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. IT MADE SENSE IN MY HEAD AS I TYPED IT BUT I TRY TO READ WHAT I WROTE AND I MAKE IT ABOUT TEN TIMES MORE COMPLICATED AND MEANINGLESS THAN I MEANT TO. I JUST NOTICED IVE WRITTEN THIS WHOLE THING IN CAPITALS AND NOT ONLY THAT, I DID IT WITH MY LITTLE LEFT FINGER ON THE SHIFT THE WHOLE TIME NOT EVEN USING THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY LIKE SUB CONCIOUSLY HOLDING DOWN SHIFT FOR /FUCKING CAPS RAGE MODE\ WITHOUT EVEN REALISING. LIKE WHEN I MENTIONED EARLIER ABOUT LISTENING TO THE SKINS MUSIC BECAUSE THAT JUST CAME TO THE TOP OF THE DECK OF CARDS IN MY MIND THAT I MENTIONED A WHILE AGO WHICH MADE ME REALISE THAT IM DOING QUITE A LOT OF STUPID SHIT THAT IM NOT EVEN AWARE OF AND MY MUM JUST WALKED PAST AND PROBABLY WONDERED WHAT I WAS WRITING BUT LUCKILY SHE CANT READ COMPUTER SCREENS BECAUSE I KNOW SHE IS LONG SIGHTED. BUT EVERY TIME SHE OPENS A FUCKING DOOR EVEN WHEN I KNOW SHE IS ABOUT TO DO IT, IT MAKES ME JUMP FFS I HOPE IM NOT TOO OBVIOUSLY NUKED RIGHT NOW. ITS LIKE IVE JUST BRICKED MY BRAIN. LIKE TAKING A FUCKING MAGNET TO A HARDDRIVE. FUCK ANOTHER REFERENCE TO SOMETHING I REMEMBER TYPING LITERALLY ABOUT AN HOUR AGO, I NEED TO REMEMBER TO REMEMBER WHAT MEMORY IM REMEMBERING AT THE TIME IM REMEMBERING IT SO THEN WHEN I REMEMBER WHAT IT IS AGAIN I CAN LOOK AT THE TIME AND ACCURATELY DECIDE AT HOW LONG THE PACK OF CARDS THAT IS MY MEMORY TAKES TO DO A FULL SHUFFLE. I ALSO JUST NOTICED THAT EVERYTHING IM WRITING FOR THE PAST 50000 SENTENCES IS ABOUT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED ABOUT 2 SECONDS BEFORE AND I HAVE TO POINT OUT THAT I WROTE THAT THE TWO SECONDS BEFORE AND WASTING VALUABLE WRITING TIME. THE PEOPLE READING THIS CAN FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT FOR THEMSELVES UNLESS IT IS ME READING IT BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. AND I ALSO JUST NOTICED HOW IM MANAGING TO TYPE NEARLY FLAWLESSLEY, EVEN THOUGH ITS COMPLETE GARBAGE WHAT IM WRITING ABOUT, IM STILL PUTTING COMMA'S AND THE CORRECT SPELLING IN FOR SOME REASON. I MAY AS WELL WRITE RANDOM SHIT LIKE, "PADINGTON THE BEAR LIKES JAM SANDWHICHES" AND THEN CONGRATULATING MYSELF ON THE CORRECT SPELLING OF SANDWHICHES. AND BESIDES EVERYONE KNOWS PADDINGTON ONLY EATS MARMALADE SANDWHICHES. I JUST REMEMBERED AARON TAKING THE PISS OUT OF ME BECAUSE I KEPT TRYING TO GUESS NUMBERS ABOUT THINGS AND ONLY BEING ABLE TO THINK OF NUMBERS BEGGINING IN 5. LIKE FOR EXAMPLE "HOLY FUCK THAT WAS LIKE 500 HOURS AGO THAT WE DID THAT" OR "I'VE TAKEN ABOUT 5 PILLS TONIGHT!" WHEN REALLY I KNOW THATS RIDICULOUS BECUASE I ONLY TOOK LIKE A TINY SIZED SAUSAGE WHEN I FIRST TRIED ANAL.

I MEAN IVE ALREADY DEBATED THE MEANING OF LIFE AND WORKED OUT HOW MY MEMORY WORKS BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE YOUR BRAIN WORKS LIKE A RICH PERSON... I CANT REMEMBER WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS AND TYPING OUT EVERYTHING I THINK GIVES ME TIME TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE TO WRITE BECAUSE IM TYPING AT ABOUT HALF THE SPEED AS IM THINKING RIGHT NOW AND I TYPE PRETTY DAMN FUCKING FAST! BUT IT CANT KEEP UP AND MY BRAIN RAM IS FULL SO I CANT FUCKING REMEMBER WHAT I WAS ABOUT TO WRITE BEFORE I WROTE WHAT I JUST WROTE. LUCKILY I AM WRITING WHAT I AM THINKING SO I CAN JUST GO LOOK AT WHAT I WAS GOING TO TYPE BEFORE I GOT DISTRACTED ABOUT EXPLAINING WHY I GET DISTRACTED WHILE THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING..... OH YEAH AN ANALOGY (THATS PROBABLY THE WORD IM LOOKING FOR, IM GOOD AT MAKING UP WORDS THAT SOUND RELATED BUT PROBABLY ARNT THE EXACT WORD IM LOOKING FOR BECAUSE IT MAKES ME SOUND CLEVER AND AARON ONLY GOT A C IN ENGLISH OR WHATEVER OR MATHS OR WHATEVER I REMEBER HIM SAYING ABOUT IT AND I JUST REALISED IVE STARTED TO SAY THIS OUT LOUD SO AARON HEARD THAT BUT HE JUST BUHHH AND DIDNT SEEM TO BE BREATHING) DAMN IVE FORGOTTEN WHY I WAS WRITING ABOUT ANALOGYS NOW HOLD ON... OH THE IRONY I JUST READ BACK AND READ A FUCKING MASSIVE SECTION I WROTE ABOUT FORGETTING WHAT IM WRITING AND GETTING SIDE TRACKED WRITING SOMETHING ELSE, LOOKING FOR WHAT IT WAS I GOT SIDE TRACKED LOOKING FOR LOL MY HEAD IS FULL OF FUCK. WAIT IVE GOT SOMETHING FUNNY TO SAY BUT I NEED TO SAY WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY ABOUT ANALOGIES OF RICH KIDS AND YOUR MIND OH YEAH THAT CAME TO ME AS I WONDERED WHAT IT WAS THAT I HAD FORGOTTEN. ITS LIKE I WAS AWARE THAT I KNEW I HAD FORGOTTEN SOMETHING AND JUST KNOWING THAT MADE ME RECALL WHAT IT WAS THAT I WAS TRYING TO REMEMBER. MY LONG TERM BRAIN IS FUCKING ON FIRE ATM LIKE I KNOW I CANT REMEMBER SOMETHING WHICH MAKES ME KNOW I CANT REMEMBER WHAT THAT SOMETHING IS AND THEN I INSTANTLY REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS .. BUT THEN IT GOES BACK INTO MY SHORT TERM MEMORY WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT AND THATS LIKE PUTTING IT AT THE BOTTOM OF A STACK OF CARDS BEING PICKED ONE AT A TIME FROM THE TOP AND I HAVE TO WAIT TILL IVE THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING IVE THOUGHT ABOUT SINCE I THOUGHT ABOUT THAT SPECIFIC THING UNTILL I AM ABLE TO PIN POINT EXACTLY WHAT IT WAS AGAIN.

Aww FHUCK

AND ALL THIS IS BEING WROTEN BY MY HANDS AND NOT MY HEAD LIKE IM THINKING USING MY HANDS AND ITS SKIPPING OUT THE MIDDLE MAN WHOM BEING THE BRAIN IS REDUCED TO THE SHITTY DUTY OF REMINDING ME WHAT IM DOING EVERY SO OFTEN BUT I FORGET IT THE MOMENT IT HAPPENS AS IM SURE IVE ALREADY MENTIONED, CUS I REMEMBER IT IN MY LONG TERM MEMORY ITS TAKEN ABOUT 3 HOURS FOR ME TO WRITE THIS. I WANT TO KNOW WHEN THINGS STOP BEING IN YOUR SHORT TERM MEMORY AND START BEING IN YOUR LONG TERM. I MEAN WHAT TIME EXACTLY DOES IT MAKE THE SHIFT AND WHY IS IT THAT I CAN ONLY BE AWARES OF THINGS HAPPENING EXCEPT ITS LIKE AN HOUR AFTER THEYVE HAPPENEN I JUST REMEMBER REMEMBERING IT BUT NOT AT THE TIME WHICH IS WIERD AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING BUT I WANTED TO KNOW HOW LONG IT TOOK FOR ME TO RECAL THINGS SO I TOLD AARON AT ONE POINT TO REMEMBER ME "TELLING HIM TO REMEMBER ME TELLING HIM TO REMIND ME WHEN I SAID SOMEHTING AGAIN BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT THING IS GOING TO BE SO JUST COUNT THE MINUTES UNTILL THE MOMENT WHEN I REMEMEBER TELLING YOU TO SAY THIS TO ME AND I CANT EVEN REMEMBER WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW LOL, WANT ANOTEHR PILL?" AND THEN WHEN I REMEMEBERED THAT I TOLD HIM I HAD SAID THAT (I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW LOLWAT) BUT THEN I FORGOT THAT AARON WAS NOT A MASTER OF TIME AND HE DID NOT WORK LIKE A STOPWATCH SO HE DID NOT KNOW HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN SINCE I TOLD HIM TO REMEMBER HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN SINCE I TOLD HIM TO REMEMEBER AND ALSO HE DID NOT EVEN REMEMBER ME SAYING THAT. WHICH WAS FUNNY IN A WAY. AND I KNOW IN MY HEAD THAT IM GONNA HAVE TO LIKE RE WRITE THIS SO I CAN UNDERSTAND IT TOMMOROW WHEN IM NOT IN A STATE EVEN THOUGHT I DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO TRANSLATE IT SO I CAN READ IT, IF I CANT READ WHAT IT IS IM WRITING ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE.. BUT IM SURE ILL FIGURE IT OUT. THIS WILL ALL BE IN MY GOOD 'OL LONGTERM MEMORY BY THEN. OR IVE FORGOTTEN I EVER WROTE IT AND ITS ON MY HARDDRIVE READY FOR MY MUM TO ACCIDENTALY COME ACROSS LIKE SHE DOES EVERYTIME I PUT FUCKING ANYTHING ON MY PC THAT I WANT TO KEEP SECRET AND SHE ACCIDENTALY FINDS IT. MAYBE ILL JUST SAVE IT ON DESKTOP BECAUSE THATS REALLY FUCKING OBVIOUS AND IM FINDING IT HARD TO THINK OF OBVIOUS THINGS RIGHT NOW AND MY MUM SURELY THINKS LIKE I DO AT THIS CURRENT STAGE IN TIME, RITE ? FUCK I DIDNT WRITE THIS MUCH FOR ENGLISH COURSEWORK FOR GABBERS I JUST FEEL INSPIRED AND LIKE EXPRESSING MYSELF IN SOME WAY RIGHT NOW. I SWEAR TO GOD IF I COULDNT TYPE OR TALK TO AARON; WHO I THINK IS DEAD; ANYTHING IM THINKING RIGHT NOW I WOULD EXPLODE AND DIE. ITS LIKE TRYING TO STOP THINKING. YOU CANT DO IT BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT NOT THINKING AND THEN YOU REALISE YOU ARE THINKING AND THEN YOU REALISE YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT THINKING AND MAYBE I SHOULD JUST SAVE THIS AS 'PYHCHOLOGY_COURSEWORK.DOC' AND MY COURSEWORK FOR IT NEXT YEAR WOULD BE FUCKING SORTED.

AND THOUGHTS ARNT MADE OF SOLIDS OR LIQUIDS OR GASES SO THEY CANT FUCKING POSSIBLY EXIST. NOR IS ELECTRICITY AT THAT POINT. AND WHATS ALL THE BULLSHIT ABOUT EVERYTHING BEING MADE OF CARBON OR SOMETHING. I AM NOT MADE OF CARBON BECAUSE METAL IS METALLY AND I AM FLESHY.




AND YOU NEED TO BE IMAGINATIVE AND HAVE A BRAIN THATS LIKE GOOD AT THINKING OF RANDOM SHIT TO BE GOOD AT ENGLISH.

YOU NEED A BRAIN THATS QUICK AT MAKING DECISIONS AND MAKING CONCLUSIONS TO BE GOOD AT MATHS

AND YOU NEED A BRAIN THATS GOOD AT REMEMBERING SHIT AND RECALLING IT TO BE GOOD AT SCIENCE.

THERE WE SORTED OUT WHAT KIND OF BRAIN YOU NEED TO BE GOOD AT THE 3 MAIN SUBJECTS AT SCHOOL OR LIFE I THINK THEY ARE RELEVENT TO BOTH BECAUSE MATHS WOULDNT WORK WITHOUT SCIENCE AND VICE VERSA BUT I DONT KNOW ABOUT ENGLISH BECAUSE IT MAY AS WELL BE GERMAN OR SOMETHING SO BASCIALLY IF YOU ONLY HAVE A BRAIN THAT IS IMAGINATIVE YOU ARE FUCKED BECAUSE YOU WILL ONLY BE GOOD AT ENGLISH WHICH IS JUST A LANGUAGE AND THINGS CAN GO ON WITHOUT LANGUAGE BUT NOT WITHOUT SCIENCE OR MATHS WHICH MAKES ME WONDER WHY ENGLISH IS ONE OF THE 3 MAIN SUBJECTS BECAUSE ITS USELESS IF EVERYONE SPOKE DIFFERENT LANGUAGES LIKE WHUT IT IS HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE.

Oh my god

MY RAM IS LIKE SHORT TERM MEMORY AND HARD DRIVE IS LIKE LONG TERM MEMORY AND THE RAM IS FUCKING BREAKING AND DOESNT DISPLAY WHAT IS HAPPENING WHEN IT HAPPENS BUT THEN IT DUMPS SOME OF ITS SHORT TERM MEMORY ONTO THE HARDDRIVE WHICH IS LONG TERM MEMORY WHICH IS WORKING PROPERLY SO THEN I REMEMBER THINGS THAT I DONT REMEMBER HAPPENING AT THE TIME THEY FUCKING HAPPENENED AWWW FUCK. AND THE HARDDRIVE IS READ ONLY BECAUSE I CAN ONLY REMEMBER THINGS THAT HAPPENENED BEFORE IN THE NIGHT AND AM THINKING OF ABSALUTELY NOTHING NEW AT ALL AT THIS POINT ITS LIKE I RUN OUT OF RAMS TO STORE IT SO I JUST FORGET EVERYTHING PAST THE POINT WHERE THE RAM GOT FILLED UP. ALSO THE CPU IS BUSTED BECAUSE I CANT ONLY STORE WHAT IS HAPPENING AT THE TIME, I CANT REGISTER WHAT IS HAPPENING EITHER SO IM BASICALLY BRAIN DEAD AND THE ONLY THING IM THINKING ABOUT AT A TIME IS MEMORIES THAT MADE IT ONTO THE HARDDRIVE AND NOT EVEN WHAT IM DOING THE SECOND IM THINKING ABOUT THE MEMORIES. I BECOME THE MEMORIES AND HOW AM I ABLE TO REMEMBER HOW COMPUTERS WORK AND RELATE IT TO MY BRAIN WHILE IM NOT EVEN ABLE TO TALK PROPERLY IRL RIGHT NOW OR CONCENTRATE WHAT IS GOING ON THE MOMENT ITS HAPPENING LIKE WE HAD THE MUSIC OFF OF SKINS PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND FOR LIKE ABOUT 5 HOURS CUS WE LEFT SKINS IN THE DISK DRIVE AND ON ITS MENU AND WE DIDNT EVEN REALISE IT WAS PLAYING MUSIC UNTILL WE REALISED... I SUPPOSE WE JUST FINALY REALISED THAT THERE WAS A SORT OF BACKGROUND NOISE THAT OUR BRAINS

HAD TRAINED THEMSELVES TO IGNORE LIKE EVERYONE IGNORES MADDIE TINDLE OR ME RIGHT NOW WHICH IS WHY IM WRITING SHIT WHICH I CAN TELL THE GRANDKIDS ABOUT WHILE MY CREATIVE JUICES ARE STILL FLOWING BECAUSE IT WOULD BE A WASTE (OR AT LEAST I THINK IT WOULD BE NOW) TO NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IT SEEMS FUCKING SWEET AND INGENIOUS RIGHT NOW BUT NOBODYS LISTENING TO ME AND I THINK I JUST WROTE THAT BUT I CANT REMEMEBER BECAUSE TO BE HONEST I DONT REMEMBER THE WORD I TYPED BEFORE THIS ONE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IM NOT EVEN AWARE OF TIME RIGHT NOW IM JUST SUBCONCIOUSLY WRITING SHIT THAT IM NOT EVEN THINKING ABOUT EXCEPT I JUST THOUGHT ABOUT MAYBE THINKING BECAUSE I WROTE THAT AND REALISED HOW MUCH IM WRITING ABOUT ABSALUTELY NOTHING. MAYBE IT CAN BE A NOVEL WHEN I DIE A HERO AFTER I SAVED THE WORLD SOME DAY LIKE I FEEL LIKE I COULD DO RIGHT NOW FUCK.