Aww FHUCK

AND ALL THIS IS BEING WROTEN BY MY HANDS AND NOT MY HEAD LIKE IM THINKING USING MY HANDS AND ITS SKIPPING OUT THE MIDDLE MAN WHOM BEING THE BRAIN IS REDUCED TO THE SHITTY DUTY OF REMINDING ME WHAT IM DOING EVERY SO OFTEN BUT I FORGET IT THE MOMENT IT HAPPENS AS IM SURE IVE ALREADY MENTIONED, CUS I REMEMBER IT IN MY LONG TERM MEMORY ITS TAKEN ABOUT 3 HOURS FOR ME TO WRITE THIS. I WANT TO KNOW WHEN THINGS STOP BEING IN YOUR SHORT TERM MEMORY AND START BEING IN YOUR LONG TERM. I MEAN WHAT TIME EXACTLY DOES IT MAKE THE SHIFT AND WHY IS IT THAT I CAN ONLY BE AWARES OF THINGS HAPPENING EXCEPT ITS LIKE AN HOUR AFTER THEYVE HAPPENEN I JUST REMEMBER REMEMBERING IT BUT NOT AT THE TIME WHICH IS WIERD AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING BUT I WANTED TO KNOW HOW LONG IT TOOK FOR ME TO RECAL THINGS SO I TOLD AARON AT ONE POINT TO REMEMBER ME "TELLING HIM TO REMEMBER ME TELLING HIM TO REMIND ME WHEN I SAID SOMEHTING AGAIN BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT THING IS GOING TO BE SO JUST COUNT THE MINUTES UNTILL THE MOMENT WHEN I REMEMEBER TELLING YOU TO SAY THIS TO ME AND I CANT EVEN REMEMBER WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW LOL, WANT ANOTEHR PILL?" AND THEN WHEN I REMEMEBERED THAT I TOLD HIM I HAD SAID THAT (I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW LOLWAT) BUT THEN I FORGOT THAT AARON WAS NOT A MASTER OF TIME AND HE DID NOT WORK LIKE A STOPWATCH SO HE DID NOT KNOW HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN SINCE I TOLD HIM TO REMEMBER HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN SINCE I TOLD HIM TO REMEMEBER AND ALSO HE DID NOT EVEN REMEMBER ME SAYING THAT. WHICH WAS FUNNY IN A WAY. AND I KNOW IN MY HEAD THAT IM GONNA HAVE TO LIKE RE WRITE THIS SO I CAN UNDERSTAND IT TOMMOROW WHEN IM NOT IN A STATE EVEN THOUGHT I DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO TRANSLATE IT SO I CAN READ IT, IF I CANT READ WHAT IT IS IM WRITING ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE.. BUT IM SURE ILL FIGURE IT OUT. THIS WILL ALL BE IN MY GOOD 'OL LONGTERM MEMORY BY THEN. OR IVE FORGOTTEN I EVER WROTE IT AND ITS ON MY HARDDRIVE READY FOR MY MUM TO ACCIDENTALY COME ACROSS LIKE SHE DOES EVERYTIME I PUT FUCKING ANYTHING ON MY PC THAT I WANT TO KEEP SECRET AND SHE ACCIDENTALY FINDS IT. MAYBE ILL JUST SAVE IT ON DESKTOP BECAUSE THATS REALLY FUCKING OBVIOUS AND IM FINDING IT HARD TO THINK OF OBVIOUS THINGS RIGHT NOW AND MY MUM SURELY THINKS LIKE I DO AT THIS CURRENT STAGE IN TIME, RITE ? FUCK I DIDNT WRITE THIS MUCH FOR ENGLISH COURSEWORK FOR GABBERS I JUST FEEL INSPIRED AND LIKE EXPRESSING MYSELF IN SOME WAY RIGHT NOW. I SWEAR TO GOD IF I COULDNT TYPE OR TALK TO AARON; WHO I THINK IS DEAD; ANYTHING IM THINKING RIGHT NOW I WOULD EXPLODE AND DIE. ITS LIKE TRYING TO STOP THINKING. YOU CANT DO IT BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT NOT THINKING AND THEN YOU REALISE YOU ARE THINKING AND THEN YOU REALISE YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT THINKING AND MAYBE I SHOULD JUST SAVE THIS AS 'PYHCHOLOGY_COURSEWORK.DOC' AND MY COURSEWORK FOR IT NEXT YEAR WOULD BE FUCKING SORTED.