OH FUCK THATS CONVENIENT THATS ACTUALLY WHAT THE ANALOGY ABOUT RICH KIDS AND YOUR MIND WAS GONNA BE ABOUT BUT THEN I FORGOT WHAT I WAS WRITING LIKE I HAVE NUMEROUS TIMES SO FAR AND STARTED TALKING ABOUT FORGETTING THINGS INSTEAD LOL. IRONY. SO WHILE I CAN KNOW WHAT I BE TALKING ABOUT THE ANALOGY WAS SOMETHING LIKE "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE GOT UNTILL ITS GONE" WHICH IS RELEVENT TO RICH PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE NOT TO HAVE WEALTH UNTIL ITS GONE BUT ALSO TO DO WITH YOUR BRAIN BECAUSE UNTIL YOU REALISE SOMETHING IS GONE YOU DONT REALISE WHAT ITS LIKE NOT HAVING IT BEFORE. I GUESS WHAT IM GETTING AT IS THAT I AM AWARE THAT I HAVE NO SHORT TERM MEMORY AND THE FACT I AM AWARE OF IT IS MAKING ME SORT OF UNDERSTAND HOW MEMORY WORKS IN A WAY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. IT MADE SENSE IN MY HEAD AS I TYPED IT BUT I TRY TO READ WHAT I WROTE AND I MAKE IT ABOUT TEN TIMES MORE COMPLICATED AND MEANINGLESS THAN I MEANT TO. I JUST NOTICED IVE WRITTEN THIS WHOLE THING IN CAPITALS AND NOT ONLY THAT, I DID IT WITH MY LITTLE LEFT FINGER ON THE SHIFT THE WHOLE TIME NOT EVEN USING THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY LIKE SUB CONCIOUSLY HOLDING DOWN SHIFT FOR /FUCKING CAPS RAGE MODE\ WITHOUT EVEN REALISING. LIKE WHEN I MENTIONED EARLIER ABOUT LISTENING TO THE SKINS MUSIC BECAUSE THAT JUST CAME TO THE TOP OF THE DECK OF CARDS IN MY MIND THAT I MENTIONED A WHILE AGO WHICH MADE ME REALISE THAT IM DOING QUITE A LOT OF STUPID SHIT THAT IM NOT EVEN AWARE OF AND MY MUM JUST WALKED PAST AND PROBABLY WONDERED WHAT I WAS WRITING BUT LUCKILY SHE CANT READ COMPUTER SCREENS BECAUSE I KNOW SHE IS LONG SIGHTED. BUT EVERY TIME SHE OPENS A FUCKING DOOR EVEN WHEN I KNOW SHE IS ABOUT TO DO IT, IT MAKES ME JUMP FFS I HOPE IM NOT TOO OBVIOUSLY NUKED RIGHT NOW. ITS LIKE IVE JUST BRICKED MY BRAIN. LIKE TAKING A FUCKING MAGNET TO A HARDDRIVE. FUCK ANOTHER REFERENCE TO SOMETHING I REMEMBER TYPING LITERALLY ABOUT AN HOUR AGO, I NEED TO REMEMBER TO REMEMBER WHAT MEMORY IM REMEMBERING AT THE TIME IM REMEMBERING IT SO THEN WHEN I REMEMBER WHAT IT IS AGAIN I CAN LOOK AT THE TIME AND ACCURATELY DECIDE AT HOW LONG THE PACK OF CARDS THAT IS MY MEMORY TAKES TO DO A FULL SHUFFLE. I ALSO JUST NOTICED THAT EVERYTHING IM WRITING FOR THE PAST 50000 SENTENCES IS ABOUT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED ABOUT 2 SECONDS BEFORE AND I HAVE TO POINT OUT THAT I WROTE THAT THE TWO SECONDS BEFORE AND WASTING VALUABLE WRITING TIME. THE PEOPLE READING THIS CAN FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT FOR THEMSELVES UNLESS IT IS ME READING IT BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. AND I ALSO JUST NOTICED HOW IM MANAGING TO TYPE NEARLY FLAWLESSLEY, EVEN THOUGH ITS COMPLETE GARBAGE WHAT IM WRITING ABOUT, IM STILL PUTTING COMMA'S AND THE CORRECT SPELLING IN FOR SOME REASON. I MAY AS WELL WRITE RANDOM SHIT LIKE, "PADINGTON THE BEAR LIKES JAM SANDWHICHES" AND THEN CONGRATULATING MYSELF ON THE CORRECT SPELLING OF SANDWHICHES. AND BESIDES EVERYONE KNOWS PADDINGTON ONLY EATS MARMALADE SANDWHICHES. I JUST REMEMBERED AARON TAKING THE PISS OUT OF ME BECAUSE I KEPT TRYING TO GUESS NUMBERS ABOUT THINGS AND ONLY BEING ABLE TO THINK OF NUMBERS BEGGINING IN 5. LIKE FOR EXAMPLE "HOLY FUCK THAT WAS LIKE 500 HOURS AGO THAT WE DID THAT" OR "I'VE TAKEN ABOUT 5 PILLS TONIGHT!" WHEN REALLY I KNOW THATS RIDICULOUS BECUASE I ONLY TOOK LIKE A TINY SIZED SAUSAGE WHEN I FIRST TRIED ANAL.